So many, many things have been changing lately. So much to try and wrap my head around. Apparently God has some hard and fast lessons for me to learn yet.
I learned one very quickly today.
I just don't even know where to begin, or the struggle that has been two years of the same emotions for the same guy that never ever amount to anything because I am gullible. I say it over and over and over again to all of my single friends...guard your heart. I say it so often to so many other people but I rarely take my own advice.
I need to do a better job at that. Guarding my heart. Making sure that I don't let the emotions I am feeling trump the truth of the actual situation. I let my heart lead when my brain is like, "HEY LADY! Don't go there!" My brain is smarter than my heart is. And I think it is a terrible idea to "follow your heart". The Bible even says it is deceitful, and who can know it (Jeremiah 17:9)? Why would I want to let my emotions lead me? Isn't that like setting yourself up for disappointment?
Yep. That's exactly what it does. The consequences of "following your heart" lead to unmet expectations, anger, resentment, and generally disappointment. Emotions are such fluid things. Finicky things. Deceptive things. They lead many astray, take the Truth of God and trade it in for a lie so that you can have one blissful moment and a lifetime to regret it.
Okay, not all emotion is bad. I am not saying that. I am saying, however, that you shouldn't base your understanding of Truth on emotion. You need to base Truth on, well, TRUTH. The Word of God. Be plugged in and ready to download what He says about relationships. Godly relationships that can stand the test of time and not sway with the wind. It is good to have feelings, but don't let those feelings dictate what is right or wrong in a situation. God's Word should dictate that, and when you are standing on the Solid Rock, right and wrong becomes as easy to identify as black and white.
Feeling and emotion based living leads you to gray areas that compromise your faith, your beliefs, your morals and your life. It's not real estate that I would buy and definitely not real estate I would even consider when someone else holds the keys to the shanty built on shifting sand.
If you find yourself in that situation, RUN IN THE OTHER DIRECTION.
I know, I write on this subject a lot. However, this is what is very really happening in my life right now. If I am going to invest my life into someone else's (a future spouse for instance), I want to know that his life is build on a rock. His house build on solid ground. His faith and love for God prominent in his life and more important than me. That he is consistent in how he addresses others, how he treats people, and that he is consistent when no one else is watching.
Steady. Stable. Grounded in the very Word of God.
That guy exists somewhere, right? I am praying for it.
Until then, guard my heart. Guard your heart. Don't sell yourself short. Don't settle because you don't think you can do any better. You are a daughter of the MOST HIGH KING. Don't you think your Father in Heaven has your best in mind? Don't you think He knows your future and knows who is in it? He has a plan. I know He does. Sometimes it is easier to believe that than other times, but He does have a good plan.
And when it happens, you will wonder why you ever cried over the wrong one. You will wonder why you wasted so much time on something that wasn't going to amount to anything.
Because that's what I did. And I am not doing that anymore. Just another thing that God wants full control of. I am glad to let Him deal with it. I am sick to death of worrying and crying and getting down on myself over someone who really could care less about me. God has a better plan and a better idea. It's time I ran with that.
God, it's Yours. I praise You for what You are doing and going to do. Amen.
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