Proverbs 4:23

I can't seem to fall asleep.  That is a problem, especially since school starts again tomorrow (technically now today) and I need to be up pretty early.

As my crazy train of a thought process kicked into overdrive this evening, one verse came up repeatedly.

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." -Proverbs 4:23

This has been a very timely reminder, especially lately.  I really haven't been guarding my heart very well and have let it drift into places and towards people that it shouldn't be going anywhere near.  Such as mindless crushes. Oy.

I have to constantly remind myself that He has a plan.  He holds my future, and when I am where He needs me to be, He will bring into my life the one He has chosen for me.  For me to take that into my own hands is absurd.

Ladies, we need to guard our hearts.  We need to be careful not to read anything into the actions or words of guys.  We need to protect their integrity and ours.  We need to quit romanticizing about how we think things should be and let God unfold the love story that He has specifically written for each of us.

Let God be the dream giver, not Disney or Nicholas Sparks or (I can't believe I am even saying this) those creepy kids from Twilight.  That is not love (especially not the Twilight thing.  That's not even good fiction).  Not love like God intends.  That is lust.  There is a BIG difference.  I really think there is an even BIGGER difference in what we perceive love to be as opposed to what God actually says it is.

Singleness is not an island that we need to escape from.  This season of life is a gift.  What a better time to really draw close to the heart of the Father.  I believe as we draw nearer to Him, He draws us nearer to the one He has chosen as we both seek Him with our whole hearts.  THAT, my friends, is love.

Until then, we need to take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.  Every thought.  Every emotion.  Every little romantic thought.  Everything.

Will it be a struggle?  Most definitely.  What girl doesn't want the handsome prince and the fairytale life?  I believe, though, that God's version of this "fairytale" is SO MUCH BETTER than anything we can see or comprehend, and holding out for that is absolutely worth it.

Guard your heart.  Let God's love be more than enough.

Ok, now that I have that off my mind....time for sleep......