The Things That Break My Heart

I guess I never really thought I would be rejected for my faith.  I guess I never thought that it would come at the hands of a family member, let alone my own brother.

I suppose starting from the beginning would be good.

A few days ago, one of my brother's decided to delete me from Facebook.  I decided to question it, so I messaged him and asked why.

He proceeded to tell me that I now worked for the dark side and that me being involved in young adult ministry was me working for satan.  I tried to understand where he was coming from, and asked a few more questions that yielded nothing but more confusion and at the end of the conversation he told me to have a nice life and to go away.  I tried to get him to explain to me what I had done, but I never received a response.

I called my dad and read him the entire Facebook conversation we had.  My dad reassured me as I cried like a baby over the phone that I needed to pray for him.  My dad told me that I was strong in my faith and to keep pressing on no matter what had been spoken against me (my dad is wise).

So I sit here still replaying this whole conversation in my head, brokenhearted.  My brother rejected me and disowned me.  According to him, I am no longer his sister but the enemy.

My heart breaks because he is my brother.  He is my family.  I still care about him and love him.  He, however, does not share that sentiment.

It amazes me how family can turn on itself.  I shouldn't really be surprised by it, though.  We do live in a sinful, fallen world.  We are human.  We are given the choice to either follow Christ or not to follow Christ.  I think that the comment that hurt the most was the following:

"jesus does not work for satan. But you do. Take that brain you have research who funds the groups that you drink kool aid with and get back to me or not."

I just don't even know what to say to that.  I have never been told that before and I couldn't believe it was coming from my brother.  My brother.  

My God is greater than the things that are spoken against me.  God is greater than anything spoken against anyone.  He assures me that He is here with me, and what has been intended to harm me will ultimately bring God honor and glory.

ALL THINGS FOR OUR GOOD.

 “I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” -John 16:33

Jesus has overcome this sinful, fallen world.  He sacrificed everything....for me.  For you.  For my brother.  He loves each of us.  He loves my brother SO MUCH and so do I.  So I will continue to pray for him.  For God to take hold of his heart and show him that love, that sacrifice, and the life that he can have living for Christ.

My mind is still a little scattered, and my heart is still wounded.  It may take a little time to heal it, but I believe in my Redeemer.   The great Reconciler.  I believe that He can do anything.  I lay my broken heart in His hands tonight and pray from some sort of restoration to begin.

If you feel led, I could use your prayers.  Not for me, but for my brother.  He really needs it right now.

Thanks.